frustrations: my paper wouldn't email to me yesterday from the music library. went back tonight and it had been erased, even out of the trash. i feel like george was being vindictive to me. sharon called this afternoon, upset that i hadn't moved the piano back last night. ross writes on his blog that he wants to see don delillo tomorrow at 8, right when he's supposed to be at dress rehearsal. he's obviously having issues with me, which makes me feel bad. i want to be associated with happy thoughts.
but sigh, put on my headphones and shostakovitch piano preludes, so beautiful i almost feel tears. very simple. ross plays the piano with messy ease. his face moves between concentration that he takes in small movements in his jaw and mouth--kind of fish-like. sometimes happy, funny, sharing. well, i don't know. wow, this music is so wonderful. i want to play.
posted by Liza 23.4.03