i should sleep. or nap. symptoms: heavy eyeballs, pressing temples, big lung and stomach drink-it-all-up breathing, searching for ways to wake myself up, a hazy surround-sound world. i also feel like bursting out and running through forests and across deserts, rowing across lakes, with a quick but steady, bone vibrating heartbeat. singing and half-asleep. too much and too little stimulus from book titles and cd covers.
i keep going back to this intersection, main street and markham avenue, looking for a place to sit and watch, write, take photographs, where i'd feel comfortable for an indefinite period of time that's not inside my parked car. sitting on the curb? that could be an interesting view...i've always been impressed by tika's willingness to lie down on public concrete. i definitely have a pretty strong inhibition against it, even against sitting unless i have a very strong reason for doing so, which doesn't make that much sense because no one else really knows whether or not i have a good reason for sitting there. maybe i will go running.
posted by Liza 18.6.03