green leaves are fillin up the view out my kitchen window--one of the best things to fill up a view if you don't live on a mountainside or by the ocean or something like that. and yes, in response to the church sign on the corner ("joy comes from counting your blessings") that is one of the things i am thankful for right now, a big bay window in my kitchen. ate falafel for lunch, a re-run of my meal with tika cuz we had extra mix that i had put away in the fridge for later...wouldn't it be nice to be together (i was listenin to the beach boys?)...but wouldn't it? but sometimes it's nice to be alone. i haven't been alone here very much since cynthia left...been busy in an un-busy kind of way, with tika, with steve. this weekend went to a bbq every night--friday and sunday night at steve's, saturday night at rebecca's. and i would be happy to be with steve right now, though, even after spending 5 (partial) days with him in a row (thursday-monday), and before that tuesday, sunday, saturday, thursday, wednesday, monday, saturday...and that's all the days of our relationship thus far, not counting friday, april 9 when we met up to see a movie about al jazeera but couldn't get in and went and had falafel then went our separate ways and didn't see each other again till two weeks later.
sometimes you remember yourself through other people, or maybe it's like someone else can hold your memories--that's kind of how it felt seeing tika again. (i just laid my head back into the sun warmth through the window, bright yellow through eyelids, i want to lay outside with my eyes closed).
posted by Liza 11.5.04